Sunday, August 24, 2008

A Quiet Day

I forced myself to have a quiet day today, a Sabbath rest. I needed to rest and think on some things.

I've been trying to get in touch with my brother with no luck since I had all those medical problems in May. I've spoken with him once during all of this time. First, I called every other weekend and left a message. Lately, I've been calling every weekend and leaving a message.

Yesterday, my oldest daughter was here for a quick visit when I tried again to call my brother, and again left a message. She was so upset by all of this that she then called them and left a message, including her phone number (one of the reasons they said they didn't call me was they didn't have my phone number). Surprisingly enough, her phone message was interrupted by my sister-in-law picking up the phone.

My daughter asked her why they are not taking my calls, why they are not returning my calls. Surprise, surprise--here is the answer:

"We don't want anything to do with 'church' people."

I have to tell you that hurt--hurt a lot. It's not as though I try to force them to have my beliefs when I'm around them or I'm talking with them. I'm just me, that's all--a better version of the me that I used to be.

I went to church today, and my prayer request was for my brother and his family, for my understanding of them and their understanding of me.

I already received a response from our Prayer Team regarding this. Here is their response:

Dear Beth ~ Thank you for sharing this most personal prayer request with us. We will be praying for a special abundance of grace in your life. May the Holy Spirit fill you daily with peace and assurance straight from God's hands. May your faithful prayers for your family even be a source of comfort to you as you commit them to the Lord. May the promise that He loves each one and is patiently waiting bring you hope. He is faithful!

"I will praise you with my whole heart; I will worship toward Your holy temple, and praise Your name for Your loving kindness and Your truth; for You have magnified Your word above all Your name. In the day when I cried out, You answered me, and made me bold with strength in my soul." Psalm 138:1a, 2, 3

This response definitely brought me comfort. I've printed this, put it in my purse so that whenever I think of this situation I can read this and again receive this comfort.

I know that I am living the right way, following the path of the Light. It's a sad thing--feeling as though I'm being persecuted by own family for my beliefs.

What they don't know is this: This attitude of theirs is only serving to make my faith in my Lord stronger. I know that He is waiting patiently for them to come to Him.



Truth4thejourney said...

This is such a hard thing. I am so sorry that you have been rejected by your family. May God give you such a strong bond with His family (the body of Christ) that you don't miss their friendship anymore.

Matthew 5:10 Blessed are they who have been persecuted for righteousness sake! For theirs is the kingdom of Heaven.

Praying for you today,

HisPrincess said...

It's hard when those closest to you don't share your faith.

My husband has turned his back on the Lord after being raised in a Christian home and I'm struggling to bring up my two teenagers with a Christian viewpoint.

Like you I will continue to pray, and continue to try to leave it in the Lords hands.

Thanks for visiting my blog! It's always lovely to meet new friends.


Aunt Kathy said...

The Lord won't give up on them Beth, and when they know they are on a dead end road and need to get back, they will remember you and you will be there to help them, just as you have been there to pray for them all along.

Tiffanie said...

I'm really sorry to hear about your brother and his family. I know very well what that feels like. You are right though, God wants them to come home. I will be praying for you and them.

Sometimes, the hardest thing is to not defend myself, but not doing so, waiting patiently, pursuing a relationship and a lot of prayer recently payed off. My brother called me while hubby was away and said that if I needed anything to call him. It took all I had to choke back my tears on the phone. He's called a few times since and we've even hung out once. We don't talk about "that girl" and we haven't talked about church or God anymore, but I'll just continue living out my life and faith and pray that I can can do so well and in a way that would speak to his heart.

Yeah, if all works out I know it will be nice to be home after delivery. Thanks for thinkin about me and praying for me and my family. I'll send an email shortly w/ my address.