Please turn off the playlist at the bottom in order to hear this song....
I was driving home from a friend's last evening when this song came on the radio. As He often does, God spoke to me through the words of this song. I came home and tried to sleep, and the words kept replaying in my head...
Why?? I ask God "why"....
So many hurts and pains from my past....I think I have forgiven...totally forgiven....and then one or two words spoken by another will result in an explosion from me that is totally unrelated to the subject at hand.
Bring into the picture the three children--three innocents--who lived through this with me....four bombs waiting to go off, and go off they do....each in their own hurt and pain....exploding in different actions and words....but denotating upon one another until the hurts are even greater...
And there is one--a bystander to all of this who looks as though the four of us are out of our minds....and we are...
out of our minds with
unresolved conflict
grief
pain
the unjustness
poor choices
lies
lack of trust
insecurity
unforgiveness......
Four lives affected by one person's actions and words.....resulting in more hurts and pains because it is unresolved...
My Father,
Lead me with Your strong hands to be in the place I need to be to forgive those who have hurt me and my children. Keep me in Your love and faithfulness. Help us to forgive each other of the words spoken in frustration and anger....words that speak of the past and not the present...
Beth
