Here's what I did manage to finish:
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Just A Few....
Here's what I did manage to finish:
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Book Review--Blind Hope
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Through It All......
A time of the "itis"--sinusitis, bronchitis, gastroenteritis, diverticulitis....and that was just me!!
The kids and Lydia also suffered from all of these except diverticulitis....so it has been a time of rest, recuperation and not much else....
CHRISTmas Day itself has come and gone....but the love our Lord has lavished upon us by sending His Son so that we may experience His grace and mercy remains....
And His grace and mercy were evident in our CHRISTmas Day celebration...sick though we were....
This was the very first holiday that not one person left in anger, tears or somewhat upset with another person.
I have to say that there were words spoken that could have erupted us into our verbal battles. But, the difference is within me.....the forgiveness of one person and letting go of things from the past (a very long journey) has left me feeling the true peace of Jesus within me.
I could hear the words, see the emotions of others....and yet, all I felt was peace....not the old anxiety and anger stirring up within me....and then reacting inappropriately.
Thank you, God....for knowing and loving me...leading me all along the way. I know I have a long way to go, but You will be there for me...as You always are..
Beth
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Lead Me With Strong Hands
Please turn off the playlist at the bottom in order to hear this song....
I was driving home from a friend's last evening when this song came on the radio. As He often does, God spoke to me through the words of this song. I came home and tried to sleep, and the words kept replaying in my head...
Why?? I ask God "why"....
So many hurts and pains from my past....I think I have forgiven...totally forgiven....and then one or two words spoken by another will result in an explosion from me that is totally unrelated to the subject at hand.
Bring into the picture the three children--three innocents--who lived through this with me....four bombs waiting to go off, and go off they do....each in their own hurt and pain....exploding in different actions and words....but denotating upon one another until the hurts are even greater...
And there is one--a bystander to all of this who looks as though the four of us are out of our minds....and we are...
out of our minds with
unresolved conflict
grief
pain
the unjustness
poor choices
lies
lack of trust
insecurity
unforgiveness......
Four lives affected by one person's actions and words.....resulting in more hurts and pains because it is unresolved...
My Father,
Lead me with Your strong hands to be in the place I need to be to forgive those who have hurt me and my children. Keep me in Your love and faithfulness. Help us to forgive each other of the words spoken in frustration and anger....words that speak of the past and not the present...
Beth
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Book Review
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